The time is already 2:51 AM and my self remorse isn't letting me sleep so... why not utilize this time by sharing an incident with you all?
This all started from july 2016, Monsoon was approaching and i was busy preparing my To Do list with my imaginary boyfriend who looked 6'2 ft. tall, fair and handsome. 💓
Oh! I forgot to mention, I've never had a boyfriend. Its not like I'm not straight or I'm ugly... just because, I believe in love stories, not relationships! i believe that we don't need any label to fall in love, it can be felt through his actions and can be seen into his eyes. words are worthless in love!
And with all of this, my life was going smooth until that inauspicious day i missed the last bus to my locality and i was stuck 25 km. away from my house, the clouds were gradually coating the sky and it was getting dark steadily. I looked at my watch, the time was 4:15 PM and then i looked at the secluded road covered with trees. After a long wait of 35 minutes, i finally got a sharing cab.
I got inside the cab and approximately after 5 minutes, it started raining... The sky was as dark as the night and after some distance the cab stopped for its another passenger. There was a guy badly wet. He sat on the front seat. He was continuously sneezing and coughing, Looking at his condition i offered my handkerchief to him.
"Thanks, i really needed this😊." He said and took the handkerchief.
I started listening to music from my ipod, I didn't even realize when the journey ended, suddenly a hand tapped on my shoulder, it was the cab driver I took off my earphones paid the certain amount and went away.
But the unexpected thing was, this never happened to me before... I've met many people but no one has effected me this way, i was constantly thinking of him. I wasn't able to figure out what was it? was it his face? or his height? hairs? I guess... none of them! It was something unusual and weird.
But hold on, something more unusual happened the next day... while i was preparing lunch, i received a call....
"Hey, Parth this side." he said.
"Do i know you?" I asked in scepticism.
"Yes! we shared the cab yesterday evening, remember?" he said.
Well... to be honest with you guys, i freaked out like hell!
"Oh you? Hey! I mean... From where did you get my number? Are you stalking me?" I exaggerated.😲😷
"Nooooo Listen!" He screamed.
"I'm not stalking you, I found your ipod in the back seat of the cab... so thought to return it back."
i immediately went and checked my bag, he was right i forgot my ipod there.
"Okay, tell me the place and time."
I would be lying if i say i was unhappy with his call, there was something definitely special in him.
Next day, I reached the decided venue at time... he was already there sitting at the couch which was at the corner. We met, ordered a coffee, he returned my ipod and by the time of 15 minutes, we were talking like really good friends.
I mean, by looking at us no one could say that we were strangers till today morning.
"It was nice meeting you parth!" I said and stood up to leave the cafe while he interrupted, "But i still don't know your name?"
"Dhwani sehgil😊." I said and moved out of the cafe.
That night i received a friend request of 'Parth Malhotra',
We were now friends on social media... By the time, many more meetings were planned, many nights were spent chatting and gossiping on phone calls, many secrets were exchanged.
I showed him my To Do list which included water balloons fight, watching a horror movie in complete dark room and get drunk etc.
We completed my To Do list all together and it was the time I was almost habitual to him, i guess he also felt the same for me.
I didn't realize when 6 months passed.
Maybe it was time i started realizing that this is above friendship... but i was scared to call it love.
How unpredictable life gets sometimes, isn't it? The love i was dreaming about, was right in front of my sight but i wasn't ready to accept that.
But maybe things were different with him, maybe he wanted to name our relationship.
On 31st Dec. 2016,
He planned a date for us, Everything was just perfect... like my dreams!
All the setup was done at his terrace, the stars, candles, my favorite food. and a cute little telescope.
He asked me to have a look at the stars from the telescope and when i did so, I was mesmerized to see stars forming a shape of a heart.
When i took my sight off the stars he was on his knees, with a ring in his hands.
"We met through a tragedy But i'm happy about that tragedy, now i believe in happy accidents, I believe in true love, I LOVE YOU.💟"
I don't know what happened to me all of a sudden, i got scared of loosing our bonding by giving this a label... I was happy with this unnamed relationship... i never wanted things to change between us... i couldn't resist myself and said, "I don't think this is love... We are friends!" and i walked away.
He was upset, he was feeling betrayed and it was all justified. i spoiled it all for us!
That night, he went missing... he was not picking up my calls, or replying to my texts....
The time i was worried about him and was praying to have a glance of him, that moment i realized what disaster i've caused. I decided to confess my love to him whenever he will call me back or reply to my texts, each time a notification popped, i prayed it to be him... But he didn't replied neither he called me back.
The next day i woke up with the news of a car accident happened last night.
It was his car, he was no more!
My feelings were left unexpressed and now i can't express them to him ever. He will never show up ever again.
I'll miss him for the rest of my life,
I'll miss his smile and the feeling of him being around.
More than anything, I'll miss myself.
💔💔💔
"Thanks, i really needed this😊." He said and took the handkerchief.
I started listening to music from my ipod, I didn't even realize when the journey ended, suddenly a hand tapped on my shoulder, it was the cab driver I took off my earphones paid the certain amount and went away.
But the unexpected thing was, this never happened to me before... I've met many people but no one has effected me this way, i was constantly thinking of him. I wasn't able to figure out what was it? was it his face? or his height? hairs? I guess... none of them! It was something unusual and weird.
But hold on, something more unusual happened the next day... while i was preparing lunch, i received a call....
"Hey, Parth this side." he said.
"Do i know you?" I asked in scepticism.
"Yes! we shared the cab yesterday evening, remember?" he said.
Well... to be honest with you guys, i freaked out like hell!
"Oh you? Hey! I mean... From where did you get my number? Are you stalking me?" I exaggerated.😲😷
"Nooooo Listen!" He screamed.
"I'm not stalking you, I found your ipod in the back seat of the cab... so thought to return it back."
i immediately went and checked my bag, he was right i forgot my ipod there.
"Okay, tell me the place and time."
I would be lying if i say i was unhappy with his call, there was something definitely special in him.
Next day, I reached the decided venue at time... he was already there sitting at the couch which was at the corner. We met, ordered a coffee, he returned my ipod and by the time of 15 minutes, we were talking like really good friends.
I mean, by looking at us no one could say that we were strangers till today morning.
"It was nice meeting you parth!" I said and stood up to leave the cafe while he interrupted, "But i still don't know your name?"
"Dhwani sehgil😊." I said and moved out of the cafe.
That night i received a friend request of 'Parth Malhotra',
We were now friends on social media... By the time, many more meetings were planned, many nights were spent chatting and gossiping on phone calls, many secrets were exchanged.
I showed him my To Do list which included water balloons fight, watching a horror movie in complete dark room and get drunk etc.
We completed my To Do list all together and it was the time I was almost habitual to him, i guess he also felt the same for me.
I didn't realize when 6 months passed.
Maybe it was time i started realizing that this is above friendship... but i was scared to call it love.
How unpredictable life gets sometimes, isn't it? The love i was dreaming about, was right in front of my sight but i wasn't ready to accept that.
But maybe things were different with him, maybe he wanted to name our relationship.
On 31st Dec. 2016,
He planned a date for us, Everything was just perfect... like my dreams!
All the setup was done at his terrace, the stars, candles, my favorite food. and a cute little telescope.
He asked me to have a look at the stars from the telescope and when i did so, I was mesmerized to see stars forming a shape of a heart.
When i took my sight off the stars he was on his knees, with a ring in his hands.
"We met through a tragedy But i'm happy about that tragedy, now i believe in happy accidents, I believe in true love, I LOVE YOU.💟"
I don't know what happened to me all of a sudden, i got scared of loosing our bonding by giving this a label... I was happy with this unnamed relationship... i never wanted things to change between us... i couldn't resist myself and said, "I don't think this is love... We are friends!" and i walked away.
He was upset, he was feeling betrayed and it was all justified. i spoiled it all for us!
That night, he went missing... he was not picking up my calls, or replying to my texts....
The time i was worried about him and was praying to have a glance of him, that moment i realized what disaster i've caused. I decided to confess my love to him whenever he will call me back or reply to my texts, each time a notification popped, i prayed it to be him... But he didn't replied neither he called me back.
The next day i woke up with the news of a car accident happened last night.
It was his car, he was no more!
My feelings were left unexpressed and now i can't express them to him ever. He will never show up ever again.
I'll miss him for the rest of my life,
I'll miss his smile and the feeling of him being around.
More than anything, I'll miss myself.
💔💔💔
